October 26, 2005
Too Much Going On
I haven't been much in the mood for blogging this week, I have even been skipping past all the newsfeeds I religiously read. Sometime I feel like there is too much going on in my head and in my life for me to focus on anything well. That's why I start so many projects but only finish some of them (again I will mention this website, which I have been attempting to finish for what seems like years now). Part of it is due to my new life as a parent. can I still call it new if Emily is 2 now or should I be a well adapted mommy by now?
IF things are going ok and she is in good form then everything is hunky dorey. But this week she has been the naughtiest ever, so unbelievably defiant. At first I thought she was still cranky from being ill last week, then I thought that maybe we were entering the 'terrible twos', but she has been refusing food a lot too so its impossible to say. I wish she could just tell me she felt unwell, or that she is feeling a bit grumpy. Hmmm, the world of a toddler is impossible to truly understand, you can only do your best to work them out and help them feel well and happy.
So I am out of steam this week. My friend just booked a holiday to Egypt and I felt like somehow stowing away in her case. I dream of a tranquil place. A place where I can get a break from my head, lie and look at the sky, get pampered and forget about everything. I love being a mom most of the time, but right now I just want to run far away, somewhere I can sit and all I can hear is the ebb and flow of the sea and the soft wind in my ears.
Sorry for the rant. I am sure normal service will be resumed soon.
Posted by Maxine at 06:45 PM | Comments (1)
