February 11, 2007
Rollercoaster Ride
Lately I have felt that my life is just one long rollercoaster ride with no stops. Everything seems just so relentless and intense. Don't get me wrong, I am not spending my days miserable, most of the time I am in pretty good form, but its hard to see the wood for the trees when the days are spent trying to balance the demands of very chatty and busy toddler and an extremely hungry baby. I don't know how some of you do it, or maybe you feel like me too but never mention it. Sometimes its hard to see when there will be a break or how I can fit in me time or even 'us' time for my relationship with Warren. By the time the evening comes I am just so pooped that it takes enormous effort to do anything except watch TV.
I have started to knit the squares for my blanket project and so far have one done! So as you can see its going to be a slow process. I also tried attempting a pattern. This isn't going so good. Just when I thought I had learnt to decipher the knitting language it well went a bit wrong and ended up nothing like it should. I know I am obviously interpreting it incorrectly, but without someone to ask her its hard to know. So I am going to finish the current square and move onto plain stocking stitch (thanks sal) again until my brain can handle the complexity of knitting patterns! I will take a pic and show you how things are going soon.
At least I managed to get out round my friends house on Friday night. My first night out alone. It was just heaven. Grown up chat, lovely nibbles and lots of lovely sparkly wine. I will have to do that again very soon I think.
Keep thinking positively and everything will be fine.
Posted by Maxine at 08:38 PM
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Comments
oh, I mention it on my blog...having children has nearly made me lose my mind. Seriously.
About two weeks after I had my first baby, I thought I'd made the biggest mistake of my life.
And then they go and do something cute and they've made you fall in love with them. The swines.
I still have times where I just mutter swear words quietly all day.
I hear you sister.
: )
Posted by: lyn | February 11, 2007 10:01 PM
Sounds very familiar if that makes you feel any better!
Posted by: Ali | February 12, 2007 09:10 AM
so I'm pretty sure i'm the worst bloggy friend ever...cause I don't think I've even said so much as congratulations since your new little one popped up! although I have thought it and do read your blogs when you post them.
and no, I know you are not the only mom that feels that way. although I don't have any children, I know plenty of friends that do...and they pretty much say the same as you. heck, even I can see how you'd barely have time to sit and breathe, much less do anything else!
my dad passed away when my brother and I (twins) were not quite 3 and to this day, I do not know how she did it. but she did and I love her so much b/c she did it. Your children love you, your husband loves you, and no matter how hard..you'll make it through and see those beautiful babies grow into beautiful adults because you were there. :)
and yes, girls night outs (or any nights out) help to keep you sane, so keep them up!
.♥.
Posted by: Jenn (knittyJenn) | February 12, 2007 05:24 PM
The truth is probably that nobody you know truly feels like they are balanced... we are all juggling plates and at risk of dropping them all at any time. I am just so impressed you find time to do anything apart from feeding and playing. I know I spent about 6 years feeding, changing, racing, racing, racing. It's only now my child-plates are away some of the time that I even could think of looking outwards again. Look closer at th esuper-mums and you can see, they are like swans, floating serenely on the water.... but the legs underneath are going ten to the dozen! Just set your priorities in your order and let what you can't get done go hang... it will still be there in five years when your littlies are at school. Don't regret the lack of time now, just cut yourself some slack and do what you like now and then.
Posted by: Angel Jem | February 12, 2007 05:40 PM
that first year is so difficult. i don't remember much, just a haze of diapers, taking care of others, nursing, etc.
girl nights out are so good for the soul and the mind.
Posted by: capello | February 12, 2007 09:13 PM
Hang in there! It's so hard during those first months. I thought having a toddler and an infant was a challenge until I had #3 while homeschooling the older two. Things have been interesting! Having a good baby carrier or two or three has been a life saver. I love my Maya Wrap sling, my stretchy Moby Wrap, and my Mai Tai. They've really made it easier to keep baby close and safe and still keep up with the pace of the other two as much as possible. If you can figure out how to nurse while the baby is in one of the carriers, then even better! The other thing is that I've relaxed my expectations and really looked at my priorities. There are a few certain things that must get done in my day, a few that it would be nice, and a few that really aren't necessary at this point. We're much happier when I keep it all in perspective.
Take time for you when you can and try to enjoy these days. They grow up too fast!
Posted by: Samantha | February 12, 2007 10:49 PM
I know where you are coming from! Hope you find some 'me' and 'us' time again soon.
x
Posted by: caroline | February 14, 2007 10:56 AM
