May 14, 2007
48 Hour Day
Some indulgent pics before the ramble...
They sum up how I feel and in the light of recent events how emotional I have become and how precious my children are to me. I feel very lucky.
...I have just fed my two little cherubs and they are now plonked shamelessly in front of Cbeebies for a pre-bedtime tv fest. So I thought I would take a very quick moment to finally get around to paying some attention to my blog, so this is a very rambly post as half of me is listening out to hear if there are any demands (they are just in the next room).
Even though they both had me up at 5.30am this morning, I still managed to be 15 minutes late to moms & tots and I really don't feel like I have achieved very much with my day - well apart from making a lovely lasagne and pineapple, banana & orange smoothie. But surely I should've got tons done. I really think I need more hours in the day. But then even if I did I would probably manage to get through them without finishing many tasks. Don't get me wrong, this is not a 'down in the dumps' post, I am, on the most part, very happy. I just simply don't seem to have the time for anything these days.
To sum up my days and weeks, I can just about manage to keep up with cleaning the kitchen and doing the laundry (not including ironing as there is an ever growing mountain beside me as we speak) but anything beyond that is such a mammoth task, that when I actually do more than that it feels like a gigantic achievement. Harrison is still very temperamental with his feeding at night so its hard to do much, either that or I am too knackered to do anything other than watch House (which is just fantastic!), Lost or Peep Show (if you haven't seen this you really should as it never fails to make me laugh out loud!).
I was all set to go back to college in the evening from September to start a Early Years Education & Development course, with the aim that eventually, when I have the time (ha!) I can do a PGCE and head towards teaching. But boo hoo, you have to do 10 hours placement in the daytime to do the course, which rules me out straight away as I wouldn't put Harrison into daycare,even for a short amount of time. But on a positive note I am taking over running one of my local moms & tots groups from September, which I am really looking forward to. There is not too much to do but just having that small amount of focus and extra responsibility is just what I need. I just feel like I need something more than just day to day parenting and housework to focus on. I think it will stand me in good stead for the PGCE too I think, as it is very hard to get on here and you need this kind of experience.
So I have decided, as I can't do the college course, that I am going to get back to printmaking and join the Belfast Print Workshop. I have been toying with the idea of becoming a member for some time so at least its a no pressure way of being creative and its been years since I have done anything - I loved it so much before Emily was born and it will do me good to start again. Also my friend Susan is a member so we can spur each other on and have an incentive to go.
Blimey, I really am rambling, the kids are spoiling me letting me get away for so long (hmmm maybe 15 minutes now). I feel liberated. Ok just delirious and very tired. Sorry for the big ramble for I sure do feel better now.
Maybe see you all again soon sometime!
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