June 24, 2007
Perfection
Warren recently rescued this old game from the attic of his parents. It is fantastic and Emily loves it too! Even though I know what is coming it still makes me completely jump out of my skin. I have been having lots of fun with this and I love its retro styling!
Its also quite appropriate in a way, as I am a bit of a perfectionist, but not in a good way. To cut a long story short my first trip to the print workshop last week was a bit of disaster. My plate came apart when I inked it and it just didn't print anything like what I imagined. I think its partly because I am out of practice and partly because its a different workshop and their methods are not what I am used to, so I didn't feel as comfortable as I would've done if I had gone back to my other workshop. I came away quite deflated by the whole experience. But I am trying to not let it get to me too much and I will persevere, even if it takes me the next 6 months to get a decent print.
It also got my thinking about how I really expect far too much of myself and if something isn't perfectly the way I envisaged then I am not happy. I have to try and change this aspect of myself because I really think it holds me back in many ways, it takes me ages to build up to doing anything for fear of failing or being rubbish. I wish I could turn it off in my brain. I also find myself complaining and being quite negative when I'm with friends. Although I am super conscious of this and I really hate it I just don't seem to be able to stop myself! Maybe it is just tiredness.
I am thinking too much lately and need to stop thinking and start doing! Excuse my nonsense, one day normality will be resumed...maybe...
Posted by Maxine at 09:41 PM | Comments (3)
