October 24, 2007
Procrastinating
Isn't it such a wonderful word? Well it totally sums me up thats for sure. So much of my life has been spent in this state, which results in lots of ideas and positive thought and no action. I have to try and break out of this, pull my socks up, get my act together and try very hard to do something. Something that I enjoy but enables me to get some kind of income.
I know this past year has been hard with Harrison coming into our lives but I feel like I need to draw a line in the sand and get on with my life now. I have fallen into the trap of completely vegging in front of the TV at night and not getting anything done or anywhere in my life. I think just this week it has come to light more than ever as due to a complete lack of funds I have been applying for part time/evening jobs. These are obviously minimum wage no brainer jobs, but I really need the money.
Anyway to cut a long story short, my name was put down for (but not yet confirmed) an 8 to midnight shift five days a week, Mon-Fri. After feeling positive about this at first I am now starting to get really frustrated and thinking 'What the hell am I doing?'. There are so many things that I could potentially do from home yet I am not utilising my skills at all. I think part of the reason is that I hold my hands up and say, yes, I do need a big kick up the bum and I definitely work better with other people, especially in a creative situation - which is why my painting has been coming along nicely. If I took this job it would be an end to my regular painting evenings, I would y really see Warren properly on the weekend and I would be bloody knackered which I am sure wouldn't be very conducive to being creative.
I really do have to try and overcome this night time hibernation thing that I have got into and just focus on other ideas. Maybe I won't be financially rewarded immediately but long term surely this is the way to go. Its so hard to get going it really is.
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